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this is the first time i m not anticipating for my birthday at all..
birthday nearing means exam is nearing..
now i do noe how pui "gloria" ron feels for big exam happens to be on his birthday...
eventhough 1st semester exam is not any big public exam yet it does not feel good...
haiz...
the stress is increasing day by day..
locking myself at home does no help..
my heart,brain,hands and eyes is so reluctant to do any study..
really feel like calling for HELP!! T_T

i am hating school more day by day..
especially monday.. where 4 periods of chem is totally a disaster unless it is with my previous teacher then i will enjoy it very much..
it really do pull down my spirit to school when monday comes..
and i am thinking of being absence today but i dint do it lar...

the new boy in the class..
haiz...
i am VERY UNCOMFORTABLE with sitting with him just next to me..
shit.. i DISLIKES his way of looking at people..
and i was actually very happy he was absence today..
omg.. i am so bad..
but i really feel uncomfortable with him.. what should i do???? T_T

i am really having a very shit feeling for coming birthday which will be the 1st day of exam and school...

mood is down and i must get rid of it... =(

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exam is the week after next week.......
sniff.......
I DONT WANT ANY EXAM!!!!






i am SCARE...


FROWNING.........

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have been watching this japan drama lately..
"one litre of tears"
i am very much touch by it and impressed of all the optimistic thoughts of this girl..
she is really tough and determined and brave to accept or take up the challenges that comes across her..
through her i can see how small minded sometimes people could be, how people takes things for granted and how greedy and evil sometimes people can be when comes to somethings..
the selfishness,glances potray through it really does reveal how people can act like which is really shameful..
it was a true story based on her diaries that she wrote when she got this incurable disease..
i SERIOUSLY RECOMMEND everyone to watch it..
it was TRULY A GREAT DRAMA..
it was the only drama up until now that makes me shed my tears from the beginning to the end..
i know maybe it might a very outdated of me for somebody who already watched it but still i recommended everyone to watch it..
after all, it was a WORTH watching drama..
THUMBS UP! =)

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I AM NOT LIKING IT!!!!!
its a SHITTY feeling that i am in right now is the worse i ever had...
hot weather worsen the condition....





why am i that careless????????????????????
F..............................................................................











seriously, I WANT GO TO BEACH!!!!!
playing with lillo brighten up my mood a bit but it will SOON BE WIPED OUT...
shitssssssssssss.... shitty helll..........






SHITTY HELL THAT I AM GOING TO SIT FOR MY RE-TEST...
HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY MUST IT BE ME??????????
ARRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!

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U NVR LEARN..
SHE IS OLD TO BE THE MESSENGER FOR UR OLD SHITTY HELL BUSINESS..
WHAT U HAVE DONE IS JUST MAKING HER WORRIED..
SHE IS AN OLD LADY MIND U... FCUK..
U SAID U WANT TO QUIT UR JOB CZ UR BOSS IN HOSPITAL AND MONTHS HAVENT PAID UR SALARY.. THAT IS UNDERSTANDABLE.. UR MONEY ON HAND IS SHORT THAT IS UNDERSTANDABLE BUT WHY MUST IT BE MY DAD THAT HAVE TO ASK ON BEHALF FOR U????
FCUK...
EVEN THE QUIT LETTER U FELT TOO HARD TO LIFT UP UR LIPS TO ASK UR SIS...
WTH IS THAT???
BORROWING MONEY U ASK MY FATHER TO ASK FOR U..
NOW WHAT WE DOUBTED NOW IS.. U SPEAKING THE TRUTH????? SHIT IT IS... U OWES LIED...
ONE THING I BEG IS SHOW SOME HONESTY.. PLEASE.. FCUK..

sorry for all the rude words.. but i am hell fcuk up and cny is just few day away... hell...

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a past that will not be forgotten..
a history that could not be erased..
a family that fall apart after it..

long ago or should i say few years back.. there is this happy family.. 4 members(2 daughters and a happily married husband and wife..both working..). the happiness that laid on this family was took away one nite...

the husband went to a function with his wife and wife's family members.. the husband was drunk that nite and end up in a close room with a women... his wife called for him for several times but he dint answered the phone... the wife worried that sumthgs might happen so she went to look fof him evry corner of the place and found him in the room with a women sitting on the bed.. the husband said to his wife,the women was drunk so he escort her to the room.. the wife,dn believe of cz and end up at mother in law house the next day accompany by wife's family members...

the wife was really angry with tears filled in her eyes... she complained but the incident that nite leave a deep scar mark in her heart.. forever.. her trust was shattered.. she finally make up her decision asking for a divorce which was then disapprove by her mother in laws.. but the wife insisted for wat had the husband had done...

the husband regret very much.. he make a wrg move which forever ruined the happy family he build.. the 2 daughters dream of a happy family was shattered as well...

the husband then went on married the women in the closed room that nite.. after the divorce, he is sacked from his previous job and became a lorry driver that worked without day and nitez.. is this wat we call consequences of wrg doin??

the wife went on raising her 2 daughters that follow her.. they became good frenz.. a bond that could not be torn easily by others.. like a best best buddy..

the wife notice the importance of bonds between family and relatives and she owes brg her daughter to visit their grandma and relatives during chinese new year..

the husband is my uncle(小舅).. the wife is my aunt(小婶..i hope its correct..).. eventhough she had divorce with my uncle i cant change the way i owes call her but i was force to now and after.. she is really a good aunt of mine and treat us really really nice..

my uncle really got himself into lotsa trouble after the divorce.. gambler,alcoholic,smoker and others.. he is owes surrounded wiv debts.. he has change now but his eldest daughter hated him alot... whenever meet him during cny at my house,she wont tok to him.. but my uncle owes collect her info like getting some news from me as we are in the same sch b4.. bside,since she is a national wushu player,photo on newspaper will never less and thus he will owes collect it and owes proudly praise her daughter achievement... but wenever this cousin of mine not wanting to tok to him, disappointment was clearly written on his face followed by regrets and sadness.. his youngest daughter was opposite of the eldest as she really love the presence of her father and owes share her story wiv him..

the women that my uncle married, have to swallow all her pride,uneasiness, and heartache wen dealing with this scene.. i owes call her auntie but i cant call her the way i call my uncle's ex wife.. its really hard for me and my cousins.. not to make situation awkward for her,we accepted ehr as part of the family but there will owes be that 'duri' eventhough she blended quite well with us.. no matter how she is jz a women that need cares and loves too...

当伤害已造成，无奈，只好接受。。
她的过去虽然让一个美满的家碎了但错不完全只在她。。
接纳她或许有些难但却不可忽视她的努力，她的认真。。
她也是需要祝福。。

nt evrythg in life could go like how we hope or how we wish..
nth in life can be achieve merely by a snap of our fingers..
we are not a genie nor a magician..
hardwork is required..
obstacles make us grow..
faith is wat that keep us strong..
wen mistake is done,learn from it..

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a 2days and 1 night stay in lundu ocean resort.. 7th uncle had book a chalet very near the beach 2 months earlier.. gotta say its quite fun having all the aunty and uncle toking,joking and laughing al the way tru the nitez and even one of my aunty fal dwn from bed when slip.. muahahahahahhaha.. funny nar... its a big fall.. then.. its my first time went to the beach during wee hours(for several times ar) as sum of us cant slip due to ppl singing k in the middle of the nitez opposite our chalet(n its suckz man... noise pollution nar..) as the tides gone low(air surut lo).. we went to look for crab but oly found hermit card,i suppose the name for that lil tiny shell crabby.. muahahahahahhahahah.. b4 that we have a really nice,mouth watering bbq as we have a very good cook wiv us(my 7th uncle).. we have nice marinated pork ribs,chicken wings and lok lok(containing capsicum,onion and marinated pork meat), 2 big boxes of sushi, rice, and some cooked vegetables(from mummy and aunts cz got kitchen).. yummy!! and i ate alot... fattening!!! =( well... the food is too much for omos 16-18 of us but the feels of eating bside the beach wiv winds blowed tru ur hair was simply awesome,relaxing and splendid!!gosh.... i just love it so so much!!!!

the next morning, i woke up around 4.ooam cz it was too cold for me that slip on the floor.. the aircond and the rain makes me freeze until having a sleepless nitez.. well,since i plan to grab the chance of looking at the sunrise, i just woke up lo and wait for the time.. but to no avail,it rain.. wat i saw is mainly just the cloudy blue sky and listen to the relaxing tides brushing the shores.. feel a bit disappointed but its ok though.. then, went back to slip again on 6.20am and woke up around 8.30am,have my bath and went for a walk at the beach as the tides surut again leaving it a big sandy field.. alot of ppl went for a walk too enjoying such a soothing sight of water flowing,rocks, sands, and sum lil small creatures n nt to forget our lovely sun that shines upon us.. muakz!! muahahahahahaha... just awesome...

the journey here really are relaxing.. makes me forgotten omos anything that happen lately and is a place where i truly can let go anythg i have in my mind.. i feel more refresh and rejunevated... muahahahahahahah.. an outing away from city wiv family and friends is truly totally relax and funs.. below are some pictures taken.. enjoy... =)

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