5 more days before 1st sem exam start.....
the stress is multiplying....
haizzzzzzzzzzz....................................
my chem and mx is so worst right now..
sorry if i am not into any mood in doin anything..
i just in a darn very low worst mood ever...
and thinking of the 4 periods of chem that i will be having on monday, i really dn feel like goin to school+that weirdo...


shit.....

Labels: feeling.

sumone make me think of sumthg..
wat will it be like if i nvr been into a relationship??
will i still be who i am today??
maybe i will not noe how it will be like to be hurt and hurting a person feeling..
maybe i will still be as childish as before..
maybe i will not have so much memories to be treasure..
maybe i will not noe how it was like to be heartbroken..
maybe i will still be naive and nvr learn to grow up..
maybe i will not how it was like to be in love and loved..
maybe i will not noe how my heart beat whenever the loved one..
maybe i will not noe how it was like to hold hands..
maybe i will not noe how i regret to have started a relationship n brg to an end and hurting everyone,troubling anyone..
there is alot of maybe..
but one thg for sure is to thank you for teaching me alot of thgs for good or bad..
alone nvr will be the words describing how anticipate u are for a relationship,
or having an ex or not..
love is not sumthg that u nid to get into relationship to show u noe enuf(u nvr though)..
love is too complicated for anyone to untangled to understand how it works and function..
its a feeling..
feeling cnt be control by anyone rationality for sure...
u nvr noe how cn u not get into a relationship that may break after..
i do think that love is the creator of hurt, hatred, sad..
u shed tears,smile, and hate cz of it..
single or not, having an ex or not, u are still u..
being alone??
dn forget u still have ur family and friends for u to care..
couldnt get along wiv family well??
have u ever think of y u cnt get along wiv them??
maybe u can say they dn understand me enuf..
but did we ever understand them?
did we ever thought y must be them that shud understand us though they dn have the oblige to do so like how we acted nt understanding them??
friends are owes those who we approach..
but there, we still have sumthg to complain..
behaviour, attitude, and stuff..
wat i could say is that nth is perfect..

love is nt a thg that we can live without..
it was what tie us together as a family and friends and lover..
it was what that makes us smile,laugh,cry,mad,hate,keep moving,disappointed and so on..
it is a feeling we live in n cnt live without which make our life beautiful and full of colours..
its a greatest ever..
nvr say u dn noe how it was like to be in love.. cz u are in it..

ok.. i noe i do crap in this post.. sorry if its irritated u or watsoever.. its my opinion and thoughts.. u cn disagree cz its ur choice.. and i nvr seek for anyone approval..
to that sumone, if u happen to read this post, sorry ya cz its just my thought ovr wat u have issue yesterday.. hahaz..

Labels: feeling., thoughts

my mum help to cut my frindges..
and hell i am so regreting rite now~
sniff...

Labels: crapz, feeling.

stress.. sometimes i think emo motivate me to study.. hahahahahaha... dn noe y... haiz....
getting weirder and weirder lately... i found that i lock up myself.. yea.. lock up... i think no one noe what i am thinking of lately except u can look tru me lo.. hehehehehehehe... hmmmm... isit a good thg or a bad thing????? dn care... alone.. sumtimes i found it more bearable than faking a smile.. at least i am honest to myself... i hate to lie and i hate liers... bla bla bla... alot of things to write but i dn have the heart to update my blog at all... till here... bye

Labels: crapz, feeling.

i sense something lost inside of me......its so so wrong for me.. and its really freaking me out... damn it... how does this happen??? i dn want to lost it but helplessly i cant do anything... i want it back.. isit pressure??? somehow i lost it... i dn want it to be lik this... shit.. i hate this feeling......

Labels: feeling.

I AM PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY EXHAUSTED AGAIN!!!!!!! WHY?????? HAHAHAHAHA... I JUST HATE IT!!!!! ............
not convenient to state it here and maybe some of u may have guessed!!

Labels: feeling.

为何我还是要依然坚持？好傻！即然已是如此，我还是该放手，忘了吧。。
你的回应如此的冷淡，为何我还要如此坚持呢？
让自己受伤倒不如让自己快乐。。那可不是更好吗？
爱。。无法低估的杀伤力。。来的突然也去的匆匆。。自然旋律。。来来去去。。到头来所得到也是那几种情绪。。喜怒哀乐。。失望也是难免的。。
所要学会的是看得开，放得下。。
拥有的未必长久。。
失去的并不完全悲哀。。
坚持的未必有结果。。
希望活在期待里。。
期待的边原是失望。。
无法避免的旋律。。所以，
不期待=不失望？对吗？
没有期待的生活是怎样的？
可是，因为曾经拥有才懂得失去的滋味。。
因为曾经快乐才懂得悲伤。。
有希望才有失望。。
所以生命更加缤纷色彩。。
对你我已放手。。
选择过坚持，现在就该选择放手。。圆满爱的自然旋律。。
哈哈哈哈。。
生活就是这样。。
是无法永远得到你所想要的。。
目前真的觉得：
喜欢一个人好累啊！
心境突然好疲惫。。。。。

Labels: exhausted...tiring..., feeling.

i rather be silence and get all the blames... sense of guilt n sadness are all around me... mixed wif bits of hatred... what is the combination of this????? its reali hard to bear and get along wif it..

when have i become lik tiz???? alone.. facing all this stuff... i rather face it alone... understand it slowly.. yes... its hard to n reali unbearable but i have choosen to face it alone.. i wan to be happy but its likely to be impossible lately.. just to who that i failed to show up or keep my promises, i just wan to say i am sory... thgs happen lately is unpredictable... smile is the oly thg i promise to give no matter how bad or hard the situation is until i reali cant bear it anymore...



带着眼泪的眼睛 要如何才能把雨天看成星星..

Labels: feeling.

i finally get to understand something.. at last... i understand it..its a thing to be happy with right??? =) truth that now i am willingly to really have that nerve to face it... congrates me!!!!!!!
finally.. though i still cant get over you yet but i will.. i will be firm and no one can change my mind... except with a reasonable reason but you hardly can find one... and everything would be PAST TENSE!! buh-bye!!! with no regret.. YES.. no regret!!hahahahaha..

Labels: feeling.

F.A.M.I.L.Y

F-FATHER
A-AND
M-MOTHER
I-I
L-LOVE
Y-YOU

its father day yesterday... how was the celebration yesterday??? well.. our family dint celebrate it cause daddy dont want to celebrate it... haiz... maybe you may think we as a child are not considerate,thoughtful or dint put much effort into it but i can immediately tell you that you are so so so extremely wrong bout it.. why??? because what my dad need is just us to accompany him.. dinner and pressie stuff is not important as long as we being together as a happy family... we may not be as rich as other people where grand celebration took place but there is one thing that make us wealthy that is my family and happiness.. eventhough you have a wealth that everyone may have dream of but would you be happy if u only got money??? answer yourself...
i love my parent.. i love my sis.. i love my bro.. though they maybe annoying,demanding and selfish sometimes but there is no one made to be perfect... maybe that is what tie us together as a family... there is one thing that i can be very sure of are their love... and so,do treasure your siblings and parent... their sacrifices is more than what you can think of... they never expect anything in return... their love have no boundaries.. they protect us,love us, teach us and try to give us anything that we want... but no matter how,there is still other people out there take things for granted.. they never appreciate or not even want to bother bout it.. without our parent,we never become what we are today.. we should be thankful and grateful having both parent around us.. never let any excuses stop us from spending time with them.. it is not difficult for us to spare some times with them cause after all what they want is time together as a family... to my buddies and friends.. u guys too play an important role in my life or should say you guys are part of my family already.. there is no words that can express how grateful i am to have guys... i really appreciate you guys and do really treasure all the memory we went through... what i can say is just a simple "THANK YOU" but that also cant express much of my feeling but still the only words that i can think of... aikz...

to all my buddies,friends and family.. i love you guys and really thanks for everything!!!!!!!!!!! muakz......

Labels: family.. =), feeling.

its been weird lately.. alot of things to think... getting more and more frustrated... or maybe i think too much??? too sensitive??? feelings.. education... maybe i know something that i am not suppose to know.. or i do have the need to know it??? or is it me that always run away from the truth??? am i a liar to myself or just cant get to understand anything or any clue given??? am i hurting much more people than whoever that i know?? the stupidity and the naive that i own would not do anything better but hurting people.. i do have the need to be blame... huh... its sound stupid..its sound ridiculous.. its sound funny... its sound crazy... but.... emotional is human weakness... lately i begin to be not sure on anything..again and again... feeling blue... frustrated... L.O.V.E. stands for?? S.M.I.L.E. a thing that i should be happy wif or??? P.A.S.T. are to be forgotten or a lesson to gain from??? maybe its reali time for me to change... but how much can i change??

Labels: feeling.